when words are pointless to speak

Today's a bad day.
I cannot explain why because i simply don't know why.
But knowing why is pointless when u are powerless to do anything.

Maybe it's my cancelled japan trip.
Maybe it's how things are not going smoothly with mum and i.
Maybe it's my sickness.
Maybe it's my sadness for japan.
Maybe it's my lack of anything to do.
Maybe it's unrequited love.
Maybe it's everything.
Maybe it's just me.

I don't know. But you know. you always know. why i am hurting. why i am down. stop it. stop letting me be hurt. stop hurting everyone. i need you now.
sigh.
the end is nigh.